Half of your heart wants to let go of the person you love, the other half of you can’t seem you. As you look at how long it’s been of you running in circles you almost get frustrated with yourself. Your heart wants one thing and your head is telling you to do something completely different. I don’t need to tell you to let this person go, you’ll so in your own time when you’re ready. But just remember what you deserve and it isn’t someone who leads you on.
Maybe you’re a little confused lately. You don’t know if the path you’re walking is the right one. It’s okay to be confused and unsure. Follow that uncertainty. But do not allow the fear of failing dictate choices of walking away. Sometimes the hard path to start walking on is the one that leads us to exactly where we need to be. Maybe the next four months of your life won’t be the best but what will come out of it is a greater reward that you don’t see yet.
Your life has been a bit rocky in a good way for most of 2017. Career changes. Relationship changes. Life changes you were too afraid to make you now have. All of these choices as scary as they were are going to pay off for you. And maybe it’s not a relationship you find as this year comes to an end but maybe you find yourself again.
If you had to describe 2017 so far in your life, it’s merely one word, how? How have you survived what seems like the worst year of your life so far? But I promise you it will get better. Just because it wasn’t great, to begin with doesn’t mean it isn’t going to end up being your favorite year yet. The fall heading into winter will be when you flourish most. Just hang in there until then.
You are the first to run from relationships and affection of any kind. Dating. You hate it. Relationships. You don’t want anything to do with them. 2017 is simply a blur of uncertainty as you wonder how you’ve been doing the same thing every day and not going insane or killing someone. But you know where most people hate rain in the fall and snow in the winter and everything dark and cold that’s when you do well. You beat to your own drum. Laugh at your own jokes. And love is going to come into your life and stay even when you try and run from it.
You’ve taken a huge step in your career lately and as new and as scary as it is you are going to continue to do great. While it might have taken you some time to figure it out be proud of yourself for never giving up on your dreams. In regards to love you’ve cared about someone who hasn’t met you halfway. I know you’ve sacrificed a lot for this person. And by the time the new year comes they are either going to step up their game or you have to be the one who decides to stop playing. Remember your worth because you bring so much to the table.
I know how hurt you’ve been lately. There’s a wound deep within you that is going to take some time to heal. And just when you think you’ve made progress you fall a few steps further back. It’s okay to feel these things as heavy as you do. While love might be what you hope heals you, what is going to heal you isn’t someone you sleep with at night but rather what you choose to do in your free time and how you bounce back from this.
You are someone who has always been wise beyond your years. You see things differently than everyone your age. You always have. You’ve always been a lone wolf beating to your own drum and focusing on your goals. But one day before this year ends you’re going to cross paths with someone who is both like minded as you are but also has every quality you need. You’ve always played it safe. Be ready for the person in your life who is going to want to make you take chances.
I know you’ve been holding onto an old love for a while now. Hoping maybe they come back around. Hoping maybe they realize they love you again. Because the truth is you’ve never stopped loving them even if you haven’t spoken in a while. But the truth is you don’t deserve someone who has to leave and hurt you. You deserve someone who looks at you and realizes you are the best thing that has ever happened to them. Maybe it won’t come until the end of the year. But don’t lose hope and don’t lose faith that it will work out for you.
You’ve been lucky to find love in your life. Someone who appears rough around the edges but you truly do love with all your heart. As a couple though you will be faced with an obstacle. Is the relationship going to continue or are you each going to take it to the next step? You gotta ask yourself what are you ready for? But more than that can you see yourself spending the rest of your life with this person?
In the next few months before the year ends your past is going to come back to haunt you. Whether that be exes or people you’ve had a falling out with. And although you’ve changed and grown and matured, they look at you and think of everything you’ve done wrong. Do not allow someone else’s opinion to allow the past to dictate anymore of your present moments. Try and make it right if you can but also remember anyone who brings up your past is just jealous of a future they know will be bright.
You are finally going to let go of the past and find a love that deserves you. It’s not going to be someone who leads you on or makes you question yourself, everything you’ve ever given to someone is finally going to come back to you. But be wary when that happens because when people begin to see you happy and doing well, they either try and bring you down or every ghost will come back from your past knocking.